Today marks 9 months since my husband died, and today I was able to share with someone about the healing that God has done in my heart in the last few months. It was a complete stranger online in a local Facebook group who was loudly protesting another believers post about Easter. He stated more than once that God hates him, and asking for proof of God at the same time. After going multiple rounds of replies, I finally told them that the best proof I can provide is the change in my own heart. How God met me in my deepest grief and dispare. How He only asked for my surrender and when I did, willingly, wholeheartedly surrender to Him, He HEALED my broken heart! He took my pain and in its place, He gave me joy, His joy! I continue to pray for this person, that God will show them unequivocally how much He loves them too and desires to make them whole again, in Him!! 

I am in a show called Godspell and it’s a musical based on the book of Matthew. On opening night I invited my cast to pray with me. The company I work with is not a Christian based theatre. After we prayed, I got into a conversation with two little girls in my cast and one of them asked what is Good Friday and I got into a short conversation with them about prayer as well. However, that night I could see the blindness that they are under in. It was very sad to see. It was definitely a spiritual battle. I’m just thankful I got to be a seed and I just want to be kind and love others like Jesus. 

I had been praying for the Holy Spirit to fill me and help me to speak boldly about Jesus, my girlfriend had asked how it was going on February 7 and I said there hadn’t been a clear door into a conversation. Well that very night a coworker mentioned they had prayed before and I felt the Holy Spirit giving me courage to ask questions, listen intentionally and tell him about what the Lord has done in my life.

I had a speech I needed to write for a ministry event and was working on it before some not-yet-Christian friends arrived at our usual hangout spot. I still had a little left to do when they got there, so I joined a bit late. When I finished, one of them asked me what I had been working on, and I was able to share briefly how I was working on a presentation about songs God had used in my life to strengthen my faith and encourage me throughout the years. I just love opportunities like this because no one in this group has expressed personal interest in spiritual matters, but getting the chance to show that God makes a difference in my life gives me hope that one day God will water those seeds in their hearts.